|| Awful July month

62. This is awful July month

It's an awful time.  It's hot outside, it's anger inside.  Nothing gives a hope, everything hits the bottom of the worst yet, the bottom has yet to bottom out.

The external searches turned empty-handed, not even a positive email of any next steps, realizing the world is all about relationships, who you know, who you build upon, and not on merit.

The internal searches have been slow and destructs confidence all along.  The box is so heavy, and there is no one to help with lifting that up.  Women are not helping women, they are too busy helping themselves to survive.

The mid-year promo is full of names that destruct the trust in the system.  All the social work is useless, period.  It's a lie, and takes years to come out of the lie ... I give but I was not given much.

It's the darkest of all times.  It's an awful July month.