|| Recently

Shake hands, thank for the support, wish best of luck ... people and people, sometimes all random encounters, but when people say goodbye, that is not random. Avnish, Rajeev, Waheed, Yuan, and Tony are gone by the end of the month. Shocking, after years joking that we would quit on the 16th of March after the bonus money gets in the banks, my friends all execute the moves well and they did it, leaving me. I don't necessarily love them, but just the similar experience for more than a year in our precious life gets us the bonding that we feel sad when it has to end.

I drove 20 miles last Thursday to the south for my least liked Chinese Restaurant PF Chang. Families, friends, parents, and kids sat at the long table, all laugh all happiness that life moves on, to something better. Interestingly, I had more interactions with these guys and girls after hearing the news. They have the loverly human aspects of themselves that I now feel empty because I no longer have their accompanies.

All recently, but takes long time to get to an ending like this. What does it take exactly?

With me recently, the only advancement I can talk about is probably I have to admit that I am spiritual, not in a religous way, but wanting to talk about values. The discrepancies between the different human behaviors regarding friendship, love, and family are not something I can prove right or wrong in a comprehensible way. I will be very unpopular I know, so I am learning to be neutral, to be more calm and easy going, knowing when things should be together, or separated.

|| Overjoyed

Isn't it lovely? I can hardly sleep through tonight. The New Year began with more than enough turmoil and emotions, ironically in workplace, thought that I am almost over the sagging mood, but it's never ever over when you live in true world. It's openly cruel that I am not in control, but I will turn out to be stronger. And I'm already a different person. I never knew I can be competitive, pointy, sarcastic, liberal about talking about feelings, and I am really happy that I made the decision to unlock my own potentials, and showed that I don't dread challenges, but manage them. Full of twists and turns, over time, I see it, and I reason it. Although I don't believe they do, they do come true. I'm painfully overjoyed, over me.