Sunday, December 11, 2016

|| Everything changes yet nothing changes

A whirlwind of a few weeks and it's coming to the end of the year.  We counted the number of things that had been changed this year, most of them household items.

  • The new 2017 vintage of toyota camry replacing the vintage 2010
  • The surface pro 4 replacing the long crippled sony laptop
  • The new toilet for the guest bathroom
  • Ray-ban turquoise sunglasses replacing the Oakley pair
  • The Xiaomi note-3 cell phone replacing the samsung phone
  • The ipad mini 4 32G replacing the very original ipad mini 1 16G
  • Synthetic eye lenses for mom after the cataract surgery
  • ....
As much as I had dreamed of the ten year anniversary, the day and the time is coming.  And this falls on the eve of the Christmas, how ironic.  I could see, yes I see, that night, as I walked him out of my home and down the stairs, and I knew it was eternity for the sight of him.  We kept our words, and he did better.

It is such remarkable determination and courage.  I have had many struggles yet I overcame them every single time.  It was so hard and it was so easy that ten years had passed, as if everything was taking place in one day.  The next ten years, and the after ... it can be done, it will be done.

Saturday, July 23, 2016

|| Ten years' anniversary

Needed a weekend and twelve hours per day sleep to recover from a two week trip back from the shanghai home.  This was the third trip in ten years, after the winter time of 2013 and last year of 2015 ... nothing had happened, as it should have been and it must have been.  I realize the cause is becoming so much less for me to return to this place, this city, it's so much noise but at the same time it's so little to fill the days up.

Things always change, the foot massage, the salon are on the decline, but there are new breakfast places that taste good with good prices.  People always change, some say you have good teeth, some say I need a rest ... some are moving home again, I have not changed, I am the same me ... but there is not trace of you, whether you are changed or not, it is not the same as those in tv drama or movie theme because there is simply no you forever, since that day from ten years ago.

One of the places I've liked is the chinese palace in the world expo district.  It's the quintessential state of art, the space, the height, the art ... and the history. 

So in summary, complete silence is only sanity, it's a good thing, so much for the ten years' anniversary.