|| How Do You Explain, Simple Plan

I am working on a year end self appraisal, won't deny that this type of administrative work does make you think about future careers and professionals, but self analyzing is more difficult work than observation and judgments on other people. And then ask whether you deserve the have and have-nots, and a next step. Eventually it will get done, but it has to be behavoral, questions like how do you explain. I wonder if behaviors can be changed, due to what circumstances, and how long it takes. Thinking back, I would have to say it is never a conscious program that I am intentionally changing my behavior. The circumstances are changing me, and if that is true, people just have to be put in a certain situation to experious and change. Simple plans taking natural courses never work, self determination without extroadinary drivers won't work either. So it needs to be dramatic, but how many times are we even given the changes to be dramatic, well, no one says that we have to stay on the regular course.

All right, it's time to plan on the modest wishes and lofty goals.

|| Holiday Parties, No Shimmers

Went to a few new year parties, had expected more sparkles and shimmers.

Betty rented a neighbourhook club house. I preferred the smaller town house, no seating arrangements. And we made all of the food last year, and interestingly enough, everyone changed to safe dishes simultaneously. I reminded Pierre that his greeting message was not as good as last year's. We were probably exhausted, this has been a busy year.

For the first time in my Capital One career, I attended the global finance holiday party. It was quite formal an event, cocktail parties. I said my hellos to everyone I knew, bumped into Chris on my way out. Both of us had been elusive. He was looking to a heavy drinking night.

I went away early. All of a sudden this month of December is already half gone. I'm not expecting anything or anybody, at the same time, I am not expected by anything or anybody. I feel fortunate that this holiday season is half gone. Oh, I wish a star in the sky would take me to my home, thousands of miles away.